Now you see me!

Aside

For The Daily Post. prompts  Now You See Me

 

I remember the first-time I saw you

Bent double over your desk you were

Lone person in the classroom

Nose inches away from the sheet of paper

Scratching endlessly

You didn’t see me!

 

The second time saw you sitting right beside me

Twiddling absentmindedly with the pen between your fingers

Lost in your own thoughts

You didn’t see me!

 

The next time you passed me in the corridor

Our arms brushing each others ever so slightly

I got a whiff of your wonderful soap

Reminding of freshly mowed grass

You did spare me a glance

But I don’t think you actually saw me

 

And then came that day

When you held my hand

Albeit just to keep me from falling over

The blush that crept over my cheeks

Was enough to give me away

But I don’t think you saw it

 

Then again you knocked on my door

Asking me to help you cook

Surprised as I was that u needed my help

I obliged.

I wonder, did u see me then?

 

This time you should have seen it

The day I left you those flowers and card

At the side of your hospital bed

My initials carved ever so brightly at the back

Wasn’t it obvious?

But you didn’t realize it was me

 

And that day when I lent you my shoulder to cry

Over your ex who lived so far far away

I wondered

Will you ever see me somehow?

 

And here I stand today, looking at my empty room

The day had come when I would be leaving

As all my friends bade me goodbye

My eyes sweep over the crowd, searching for you

Your absence could mean only one thing

you hadn’t seen me yet

 

As I sit here waiting for my train

I gaze at the mementos from my friends

And then my heart gave a leap

A letter from you?

 

As my eyes scanned the words of the letter

I realized what a fool I had been

Off course you had felt everything, off course you had noticed

But only I was stupid enough to realize

It is only Now that you see me!

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First Blog-That Evening!

Aside

“And suddenly the world looks clearer and brighter today. Happier.. calmer maybe?”

“The reason? maybe because its the weekend.!”

“I can relax today, after all those hours i put into work this week, it was tiring. Getting up at 8 in the mornings, specially after just 4 hours of sleep is no child’s play. And then all those trips i made to the university just to submit my work!”

“God!  working and studying is hard.!!”

“It hurts too not have your own car! Public buses are such a pain! The are never on time. Always late! and then off course even though its a one hour journey,they never make it up for the delay. The roads are empty, people are in a hurry, so just hop on the gas please!!”

“And don’t even get me started on the people…..chitter chatter chitter chatter….. wow!!! Can someone really talk soooo much? ….And whats with the ringtone lady?!?!?!?  Haven’t you heard of silent-mode? Vibrate maybe!!!! Every phone comes with it.Maybe the next time your special someone messages you, you need to tell him to get you one! what you ask?? a vibrator!!!! maybe that way you will know!!”

“The heat makes it even worse! I know 35 degrees isn’t a lot, but when the sun is hitting you right in the face and all the seats are covered with  such cheap fabric, that the moment it touches your skin, you want to run away!! And as it was my luck,it had to be a non ac bus!!!”

“Mind you they do have ac buses and its so nice.The moment you enter them and coolness washes all over you!!! Heaven!!!”

“but sadly not today…!!”

“Then what is it about today that feels soo good?” She pondered.

Lost in her own thoughts she didn’t notice him staring at her from over the counter. It had been almost a month since she started coming here but they had never exchanged anything more than a casual ‘Hi’.

“She is here again!!” …..He thought to himself

“and Busy too!!.. as usual.. I wonder though what she is writing. She is always lost in that TAB of hers… does she write?  Or is it mostly work? 

“Was it because of my doctors appointment today morning?” She thought.

“In fact THAT- now that you ask-started out pretty bad! As if the sight of the Hospital isn’t daunting enough, it kind of freaks you out when you discover your appointment has magically disappeared from the system!! Like really? at this time and age! wow!

Anyways its should’t be that difficult to give you another one right? But hell no!!!! Bang comes your bureaucracy into the picture where you have to get you 1 year old reports, Personal history,  Insurance details, family history and god knows what not!!!!!!!!! Didn’t you ask me all this at the time you made an appointment at the first place? Being the typical ‘organised’ self that you are, would you really have given me the appointment had i not shown you all this? But no!!! Standing there, empty stomach @9 in the morning , mustering all the Polite words my poor brain can offer, i try to plead with you to give me another appointment!”

“Ahhhhhhh yes!!! now i  get it. It was because the Doctor was cute!!!   and nice i must say!!!”

“But all he said was that he and his senior are going to get together and ‘discuss’ before he gave me a final word! So actually i should be scared!! right? We all know something is wrong when they have to ‘discuss’! isn’t it?”

“But no i am not!!! why really ? why?????”

“But today seems different.”.. He thought to himself

“She seems happy. Like really happy. In fact so happy, i couldn’t stop smiling looking at her.

“there!!!! she is smiling again!!!! But what at?”

“Does she realize that she didn’t actually order that coffee today…!I just thought she would like it.Like every other day!! She never orders anything else! Yeah.. she is really lost today..! I wonder what she is thinking!!”

“Was it the dress i bought the other day??”.. she thought to herself.

“No, it makes me look fat!”

“The Awesome lunch i had today??…not at all..I spent my whole week’s allowance on that!”

“What is it?

“What is it that she is thinking??” he wondered

“Does she like the coffee? Did she notice i put extra caramel in it today? Does she know i do that sometimes..!! Does she even notice me? does she know??”

“This place maybe?” She concluded

“I come here almost everyday now.. this cafe has almost become like my second home… and this seat my favorite!!

“or maybe The coffee?.. oh its so good…!!! and they make it exactly how i like it. With extra caramel. i think i should tip the waiter this time. I don’t tip him at all. Who knows someday he might spit in my coffee…!!!Damn! i am getting late!”

She looked over her shoulders to the bar where the waiter usually stood. She couldn’t help but admire the way he effortlessly handled all the customers in the cafe.The way he swiftly moved between the cramped tables. The way his lips curved up in a smile when he brought over an order. She had often wondered how it would feel to have them on her lips!

Catching his eye she smiled at him , dropped some extra cash on the table and left!

That night as he cleaned the Cafe’s floor there was a spring in his step. He could hear himself humming. What exactly he couldn’t remember. It was something he had heard in the morning. He usually didn’t like cleaning the floor. It was a tedious task. He would always pass it to off to some one else. But today he didn’t mind. Today was different!

As he closed down the shutters and put the final locks in place, they finally asked him.

“What?? What is it so different today?”

“She smiled!”